When your surprised and not

When your shocked but not

When your confidence drops

When your self belief is questioned

When your very now is interrupted

When your tomorrow’s pain is becoming born

That later will be the very thing that holds you back

The scab you will later pick

The shit that you stir through

The stuff you talk through with a therapist

The narrative you will tell yourself forever

Did you even give me a second thought

The moment you left me with this ticking time-bomb