Drowning myself in my inadequacy

Why do I listen why do I listen

I give up my ownership of my will to please

People pleaser people pleaser

I hope it’s time for me to break out

From this cavernous phase of life

I hope it’s now for me to takeout

This negative brain lifelong chain

Nearly 55 and finally in the sun

After years of being fucking done

Feelings are worthless because they change

Because they change

You hang me out to dry I’m always

The elephant in the room

I’m sorry I had no confidence to shove your gloom down your throat.

A thought today ruins tomorrow

I just wish I felt no sorrow